Controlled Chaos

Warning :  " I'm not going to listen a word from you.. I'll tell you the time and be ready. If you won't  then I'll pick you up with me , no matter how bad you'll be looking ( I don't care ) When I got this message from Manreet . I knew it.. she'd not leave me at any cost.  Oh God , I don't wanna go . What should I do ?  ( I was just thinking in my mind, but didn't reply anything to her )  Oh!! I forgot to introduce myself . I'm Sarah . We live in Delhi , The Dilwali city . Ooo.. I mean Me and my best friends - Manreet and Ruhi .. and It's Ruhi's birthday . She's my Bff and I didnt want to go on her b'day party because I had a bad day and really not in a mood .  But they're your bffs. You can't show your tantrums to them or neither they ask your permission . So I had to go . Even I didn't wish Ruhi. She herself called me and then I wished her and she said, " Honey, you've to come. It's maah birthday...

I'm good at being a friend or a partner or a supporter but I have so many insecurities... I overthink and get tensed on small issues.. get jealous or even  don't think before speaking ( sometimes ) or  just like to live alone or don't wanna talk to anyone. But that's who  I'm.. and I'm not afraid to admit that. This is what makes me as a person. But I'm also good in many ways . I have good understanding power ( that helps to understand others )  and I've such a good heart with lots of insecurities , scars and secrets & ofcourse love. I'm neither good nor bad , everyday. Sometimes  I do all the things perfectly and sometimes make a lot of mistakes. But that's okay.. I know life is full of chaos ... And that is a part of learning.  When you gonna meet me.. I'll say you a " HELLO " with both a good and bad side of mine. I hope you embrace the good me. Nobody's perfect. Neither I'm . I am accepting who I'm and want to be...